Happy 2016!! When I posted last, I was very anxious and nervous for my surgery. I was making myself sick and just an emotional wreck. I don’t know why. I’m sure there was more then one reason. The idea of an operating room again. Being cut open again. Being put to sleep again. Not knowing what to expect when I woke up. I arrived at the surgery center very early at 6:30am. Surgery was set to begin at 8:00am. The nurse who took me back to get me ready for everything was awesome. She eased my anxiety and made me feel calm. I met with my doctor, she made some pretty blue lines on my chest, told me all was going to be fine and went to get ready for surgery. I felt good about everything, my head was good. Stay positive, I told myself. I fell asleep thinking about the beach. Surgery took about two hours and went very well. Oh and my port came out too! I was very exited about this. This means no more chemo! I was cleaning out my purse and found the identification card for my port. I had it put in on December 30, 2014. Exactly one year later, it was coming out! Halleluja!! I got to go home the same day, which I was happy about. I had a great male nurse (Tony) who took good care of me. 😊 I only took the heavy pain medication for two days. I was sore, but the pain was manageable and I hate taking pain meds. When viewing my new girls for the first time, I wasn’t sure about them. They seemed really big! I didn’t feel they looked the same. I was warned my radiated side would be tighter and will take longer to settle. I was also told to be patient and not to worry about what they looked like those first few days. So I kept them wrapped up inside a sports bra at all times, unless I was showering. I had my follow up appointment with my doctor a week later. She told me I was to begin massaging them and demonstrated how I was to do that. Holy moly! I think she forgot I had had surgery just seven days earlier! I do the massaging as she demonstrated, in the shower and not as rough. The radiated side is still tighter and requires more massaging. Overall, my doctor and I are happy with how things turned out. I am ecstatic that 2015 and all the hard, hard stuff is behind me. It was not an easy year, but it made me grow. Made me stronger. 2016 has started off happy for me. I am recovering well from surgery, I was able to go back to work after the holiday break and my confidence is growing with each day. Even though no one sees what I see when I take my shirt off, the appearance still bothers me. I know it will take time for me to get used to the new girls! I’m happy to have the option to have new breasts because many women don’t get the choice. I’ll take it one day at a time. Things are looking up! Whatever 2016 has in store for me, I’m ready.
Stay Strong. Stay Positive. 💕