It has been 228 days since I’ve written anything. I’ve just been living life happy and cancer free! I had a great summer full of baseball, baseball, and more baseball. We made one of the baseball tournaments into a family vacation. We went to Gatlinburg, TN and had a blast. We ziplined through the mountains for the first time as a family and it was something I will never forget. Fun time making memories with my guys. Overall I have been feeling pretty good. I started working out with a trainer earlier this year. She helped me learn how to get my strength back, especially in my upper body. I learned the proper way to lift to gain strength back in my chest, arms and shoulders. I still don’t have full feeling in my chest or my left arm but I am getting stronger! And it feels good!
I’ve been on tamoxifen for almost a year now. I still hate it. The side effects are just plain awful. Leg cramps, foot cramps, hip pain, always feeling tired and blah. I’ve gained 10 pounds too, which I’m not happy about at all. Tamoxifen is suppose to block the actions of estrogen. It’s suppose to put me into medically induced menopause. I think my body knows it’s not suppose to be going through menopause at the age of 37. While taking tamoxifen, I’ve still had periods. I still experience cramping. But while on tamoxifen, it was 10 times worse. I had a follow up appointment with my breast surgeon and told her about it. She had told me about a study where removing the ovaries from women with high percentage ER+ breast cancer before the age of 40, it increased survival rate and decreased the chance of a reoccurrence. My breast cancer was 96% ER+. Sorry ovaries, but you gotta go. I met with my gynecologist and she went over everything. I have the option to have the surgery done robotically. The robots name is da Vinci and my doctor will operate it. There will be one small incision at my belly button and the fallopian tubes and ovaries will come out through my belly button. Recovery time is faster and it’s suppose to be less painful using the robot. It sounds pretty cool and it’s exciting this kind of technology is being offered. Surgery is set for tomorrow morning at 8:30. Tony is going to drive me and my Mom is here to help with the boys. The unknown again is what keeps me up at night. I’ve been through so much, why this too. It’s preventive surgery. I’m not having surgery because cancer is back. I have always said I will fight everyday. Tomorrow’s another bigger fight and I know with God in my corner, I can do anything.
Prayers would be appreciated, thanks friends!
Stay strong. Stay positive.